Billie Eilish has tried ‘too hard to be ‘desirable’

Raymond McKinnon

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Billie Eilish showed a sea change when she stripped off her baggy clothes, dyed her hair green blonde and wore a pink silk corset to pose on the cover of British Vogue magazine in 2021. However, now the 20-year-old artist feels very far from that image that surprised locals and strangers.

He told the Sunday Times magazine: “No matter what I do, it’s wrong and it’s right. Wearing baggy clothes, no one was attracted to me and I felt incredibly unfriendly and unsexy. Not beautiful. Also, people embarrassed me for not being feminine enough.”

“Then I put on something more revealing and they told me: you’re a fat cow w****. You’re a m***, you’re a sellout and I was compared to other celebrities and wow! What do they want? It’s a crazy world for women and especially for women in the public eye,” the singer added.

Now, Billie Eilish doesn’t recognize the person who posed for the post: “Looking back and analyzing the things we did before the album I don’t recognize myself. I think that this woman is not me. I didn’t have time to think. I just became that. And I don’t know if that was necessarily what I was really feeling. I just clung to anything. I honestly don’t feel desired, I’ve never felt that way. I worry that I felt so undesirable that I sometimes tried too hard to be desirable. It saddens me to think about it.”

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But the ‘Ocean Eyes’ singer now has a much more “solid” confidence in herself.

“In the last two months I feel much stronger than I am. Now I feel different, as if it’s desirable. I feel like I’m capable of being as feminine as I want and as masculine as I want.”

Asked what his relationship with his body is like, he said, “It’s not good at all. My relationship with my body has been a really horrible and terrible thing since I was 11 years old. I love that my body is mine and that it accompanies me everywhere. I think of him as if he were my friend, but an ugly friend. It’s complicated.”

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